bayar hutang

okla oleh kerana saya berhutang, maka saya wajib bayar hutan walau tidak dituntut. ahaha. kalau menyampah, you are free to leave right now.

warning: this entry will make you vomit!

actually he did not propose.

nope he did not really say the words. sad haaa?

knowing mr fiance, OMG!! i wonder why at that time i can be soo patient. maybe sbb dah kenal dari sekolah lagi.fyi, we were classmates on year 2000. nama aje classmates tapi tak penah borak pun. seriously. dia punye belagak lagi sombong dan riak penuh menjengkelkan okay! kalau jalan dekat koridor rasenye mcm tak pijak ke bumi. pandang depan tanpa mengira kiri dan kanan.agaknye bangunan runtuh kat sebelah pun tak pandang.itu belom masuk adegan mulut laser yang mengalahkan pompuan kaki gossipnya.haihhh!! tp penah la skali dua bercakap i guess. dan sedikit peristiwa burger di tepi padang sekolah. owhh itu kontrovesi sedikit. tak bole lebih-lebih. because at that moment, he had a gfren. a very strict one! hehe. we never spoke to eachother since then. all i knew was the broke up story and wutever-that-i-am-not-keen story. sbb time tu rase mcm sgt kesian!

we didn't really in contact until i went to melaka for my foundation year in MMU and he went to bangi for his 1st yr in uniten. pernah la masa dia dtg visit arip, kitorang kuar minum sama dekat bandar melaka tu. considering i was one of the schoolmate in melaka at that time. i did my major in accountancy in cyberjaya on 2003. we started to go out on 2004. itupun sbb kalah betting over manchester united and i-cannot-remember team. it was pizza hut sunway pyramid. dengan macho nye mamat ni siap pegi amek dekat rumah okay. haih! sangat poyo ok. we got closer since then. we went out for breakfasts,lunches,brunches,dinners,late dinners and even suppers. we watched newly released muvies every thursday without failed. we even collected our first 100 muvie tickets that we watched together. nak dijadikan pulak MMU cuti semester hanya 2 minggu sahaje.while uniten will break for holidays as other IPT does. bezanya, he will definitly take short courses. padahal nak spend time ngan aku. ceh! :P tidak dapat dielakkan beberapa adegan kantoi yg tidak dapat dijangka berlaku beberapa kali jugakla. it took me years to evaluate this person. on feb 14 2005 we became an item! dimana pada masa itu satu test terhadapnya terpaksa dijalankan. dimana anda ditugaskan pegi ke watson tlg beli pad and disposable panties since i period at that time cannot move. being him, "jejaka penuh maskulin yg konon macho lagi menjaga air muka, sudah tentu ini tugasan yg susah!". i believed that will be the first sanitory pad with disposable panties he ever bought. buktinya, he bought me maternity disposable panties. siap bole gulung-gulung lipat-lipat lagi tau! kelakar pls. since then, i slowly taught her on women's world. and i gladly and proudly say he improved! and i would say its A LOT of improvement :)

it began when our engagement was arranged by both families. then the faimlies got more excited about the wedding since both of us anak sulung. and that time i felt really awkward. like "we are getting married but u never ask whether i say yes or no". the thought of oh-nnti-anything-happen-senang-nak-lepas-tangan-becoz-i-never-proposed kept lingering in my mind. i was confused and scared. does he really love me or not? does he really want me to be part of his life or what? maybe these negative thoughts kept on coming to me because i've experienced a very bad family crisis back in my study life. thank god its over. however, i still feel upset about this. memangla cane2 pun kawen jugakkan since both families dah agreed and they called each other when they are free. scary bukan. but still, for all men out there. let me share with you something.there are two things women dream about since they were little girls. their Wedding, and their marriage proposals. Most women will always feel disappointed if these two things weren't perfect.trust me! so i was mad like crazy. yes i know the marriage will definitely be proceeded whatever happens. ini kerana kami bukanlah org yg akan malukan keluarga. but my heart is not there becos of this tiny little thing! i was so damn frustrated.i felt like i had turn into life of hell. i skipped his phone calls. i ignored all the messages. i even turned off my phone for days! until i got his email. when i opened it, i laughed my heart out. it was soooo unexpected and funny. this man that i know for his "machoness" and "jantanness" did this! i was melting i tell you.then straightly i called him. he said he was so worried that he cant think of any other things. "Sume staff dekat brunei tu disusahkan. nak cari tpt print baju sehelai bukan senang.satu negeri tu kene tawaf. blom masuk yg tlg jadik tukang amek gambar.tak cukup sorang.pastu belom masuk tukang suruh posing.posing kt padang,tepi pantai,tepi masjid,atas kete,supermarket,blablablablaaa...." hahahahahaaaa..i cant stop laughing!

we have been together with ups and downs for such a long time.kalau nak cerita every details entry ni takkan habis punye. so it would be nicer for us to keep it to ourselves.bergaduh mesti ada. tak normal kalau tak gaduh tu. tp kadang-kadang mcm terpaksa bersabar dengan karenah manusia yang agak tidak mahu melihat kami bersama yg menyebabkan kami bergaduh. honestly,we have been through sooo much together, and no matter what storm comes our way, one thing remains in the end. its "us". there is no you and i in "us".it keeps me remided! too bad,me too have bad habits in this relationship.i can get angry easily and merajuk anytime i like.but he'll be just fine melayan. kalau boleh, i wanna award him the-most-patient-creature award.i love the way i know he’ll never give up on me. i love how i know he’ll always be there when i need him to be. which i love the fact that i will always be there for him too. i love the way, how even though we may be miles apart i still feel like he is right here with me. i love how he would do anything in this world to make me happy.i love him just the way he is.