scary

and this is scary !!


http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/10/30/nation/2409726&sec=nation


be careful.

hana hana

Announcing : today is my bestfriend 24th birthday,
FARRHANA SHAFIK....and i miss u darling. :)

I want to wish you a Happy Birthday,

And I hope you have a great day,

You know that you are loved,

In every special way.

dear you,

dear you,


i told u i wanna sleep. but i can't even close my eyes.
i tried my best to calm down, de-stressing my mind.
i knew, you knew.. how hard being me nowadays...
:(


then,i took a shower, hoping if it will make me fresher....
then, i flipped through the newspaper, if there is anything interesting news.....
then, i bloghoppped around, if there is any informative phrase that cud make my day....
then, i got myself online and i ask u whether u still online or not....
then, we started to chat, amusingly in a very cold and lame language...
then, the conversation went even bitter...


i really didn't know why, we became like this..
i fell sick, u were not here, and i was really ok about that..
but at least could u please, at least be someone that i cud rely on...
but at least could u please, at least be the shoulder to cry on...
but at least could u please, at least be the one who give me faith to keep on...
or at least could u please, at least be the reason for me to carry on...


just now,i wanna tell u that, i found an article about how we can decorate our duplex apartment..
it was so nice. there were pictures so that we have a picture how the duplex will look like..
just now,i wanna tell u that, i found that my friend's mum is the owner of the cafe at armanee condo. how exciting it was that we might get cheaper price or wutever..
just now,i wanna tell u that, my father has confirmed his position in KL.
but, i just couldn't. u blew things off just like that.


i just wanna share things that can make me happy......i just wanna share..
if it is not u, so who else?


i know you are going offshore for some days.
yes i glad u did well in your job.
but at the same time i was so sad that u always not there whenever i needed u here.
its not that i don't understand. i do.
i just want u to appreciate the time left for us.
i just want u to appreciate what we have sacrificed.
i just want u to appreciate me....


yes this is me in my deepest, darkest, unloved moment.


yes ppl, u know how some things are better left unsaid so they wouldn't seem "real"..
and u could continue on living in denial -- in hopes that it'll keep the sadness at bay and u can live your life relatively happy?




that's what i was doing.

updates

dear all, i just came back from hospital. yes i am not that well. but never mind i just want to flashback wut happen during my openhouse. p/s: this might be long...

okay we start from here. ini adalah sedikit preview menu on that day. nasi minyak,nasi dagang,lemang,rendang,cakes n cookies, serta buah-buahan. sedap bukan? menyesal tak dtg? hehehehe.. takpe.. dtg next time k

untung woo sape yg kanak2 dtg openhouse aritu. dapat duet raya berkepuk2. so agak2 next year punye open house kalau korang nak duet raye dtg la pakai baju raya korang yg umor 11 tahun. try la. never try never fail. :D

selain melayan tetamu, saya juga perlu melayan adik bongsu yg bole tiba2 dtg merajuk sbb tiada org melayan dia. hahahhahahaha. confirm la. muke kamu tu hari2 kitorang tgk punye. cet

ini adalah gerai ABC n cendol. gerai terhangat pada hari kejadian. hahaha. layan gile. bole request pulak tu nak byk ape nk kurang ape. sporting gilos makcik ni. cayalah makcik. we support you.

haaa yang ni best. ini ialah laksa penang dan soto yg tidak mungkin anda dapati di kedai2 lain. confirm meleleh air mata sbb pedas okayyyyy..

ini adalah muke terpaksa "tolong jadi babysitter kejap, makcik nak mkn".. aisehhhh.. turun saham..so trick dia, duduk je situ, jgn pegi mane2 okay..

ini ialah "hey mr deejay keep the record on i wanna.......".. :P ... yeahh inilah pakcik deejay yg memanjang pasang lagu 60 an. tertekan eden. skali je die pasang lagu letto. tu pun salah tekan agaknye. hahaha

ni tempat mengambil air minuman,sejuk dan panas. teh ais teh o ais nescape panas bandung ape ntah lagi bykla senang cite. yg menarik ialah 2 bijik peti ice cream kat blakang pakcik tu. fuhhh ice cream die mmg heavennn beb. tak caye tanye azrin ke boy ke hafiz ke, ala tanye la sape2 yg dtg mkn ice cream tu.

ini adalah gerai murtabak. murtabak pakcik ni sedap wooo.. tebal die smacam..kuah ade dua. satu yg kaler pink cuka tu ngan gulai. makan panas2 ni layan jugak.

ini adalah gerai sate. pakcik yg tengah kibas sate tu takde kene mengena pun ngan kitorang.lagi2 mamat yg pakai baju kuning tu, lagi takde kene mengena. saje je tempah die sbb sate die sedap n spesel. aritu selain ayam n daging,ade sate pedal dan hati dan kerang. sedap kan?

ini adalah khemah yg tak brape vip sbb takde carpet. model2 ini adalah budak2 skolah dr sekolah rendah sri sepang. time ni bole la tgkp gambo sbb x bz.. ehehe

ini adalah khemah utk org2 yg konon2 vip. so agak sopan sedikit sbb ade carpet. tp yg tak besnye tak bole jalan2 tgk food2 lain sbb sume served on the table.

wahhh sungguh panjang bukan entry kali ini. ok sekian. i need my inhaler