36 things that change when you have a baby

1. tidur makin lambat. tidur makin kurang.

2. makan makin banyak. sbb breastfeeding itu melaparkan. tp daddy dia tak breastfeed pun makan banyak jugak. hairan bukan?

3. the sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices.

4. kalau pegi shopping, barang/baju/mainan baby jadi main attraction.

5. you respect your parents and love them in a new way.

6. bujang, packing utk seorang. dah kawen, share satu luggage. now- tambah luggage utk baby. so does the packing!

7. you find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own. baby kene amek darah, aku yg meraung2.

8. mudah kecik hati makan hati terasa hati towards whatever ppl do/say bout your baby.

9. everyday is a suprise.

10. kalau tgk cermin, dah tengok diri sendiri but tengok baby.

11. you finally realize that true joy doesn't come from material wealth

12. faham kenapa family with babies go onboard before other ppl. its not easy to travel with babies.

13. don't mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night.

14. tak sanggup tinggal baby dengan bibik utk keluar have fun. seriously.

15. mula fikir utk menabung utk education baby.

16. dulu amek masa 5 menet bersiap, skarang stengah jam plg minimum.

17. you discover an inner strength you never thought you had.

18. you take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you'll be late.

19. kalau merajuk, you love your baby so much than your spouse. :P

20.You realize that you can love a complete stranger.

21. If you didn’t believe in love at first sight before, now you do

22. marah kalau ada bunyi bising yg boleh kejotkan baby tidur. marah sangat.

23.You just plain love life more - everything comes together and becomes better because of one tiny person and your love for them.

24. marah dengan org isap rokok dekat baby. bau rokok pun dah menjengkelkan. rasa mcm nak jerit, woi, takde akal ke?

25. you know how useful minyak kayu putih is.

26. its heartbreaking when your milk supply is not enuff for your baby.

27. you kiss your baby more than you kiss your spouse. :P

28. you wanna make world a better place.

29. now someone is depending on you, only you! he has only you, only you!

30. you want to sanitize everything. i mean, EVERYTHING!

31. finally find out the real reason you have those breasts.

32. you want to take better care of yourself for your child.

33. kalau call dari ofis, first thing tanya is baby buat ape? minum susu ke belom? nangis ke tak? baby FIRST!

34. dunia seakan aman gila when your baby smiles at you.

35. you can have the most wonderful conversation using only vowel sounds like "ahhh" and "oooo."

36. you realized that contraceptive is very important. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Hard to let go

Dear who-ever-tries-to-change-me,


Let me tell you. Just because a person smiles all the time, doesnt mean their life is perfect. Sometimes the quietest people like me have the most to say but they tend to keep to themselves. Please give us a chance to express ourselves. Because we, have feelings too. We have right to speak on our opinion and the view from our eyes. Dont quickly judge our personality. No we are not hypocrite. We are trying to be ourselves. Yet, you want me to shut my mouth. Yes i know you'll be happier if i keep everything to myself. Yes, you want me tobecome that "yes man!"

come on, people.

Before you judge my life or my character, walk in my shoes, walk the path i have traveled, live my sorrow, doubts, fear, pain and laughter.
You want me to change. And i twisted into someone i dont even recognize. And you said your intention is for a better me. Do you think i'm happy?

Just because the heart heals doesn't mean it wont leave a scar. And my heart bleed still.